That scar is fading. And so is the memory... but only a little. Most of the events of that time in our lives are engraved pretty heavily on my heart. I just like to push them to the back burner and focus on the following days, each one while watching Andrew grow, laugh, learn and I just fall in love with him more each day.
In both of these pictures, I have to comment on how he lined up his Thomas trains, just like they are on the show. He knows Annie and Clarabel go behind Thomas, and Henry and James go right nearby. His favorite things to do these days are to play with his trains.
I have to admit, the thought of sending Andrew back to surgery in his future makes me almost physically sick. When I think about how much more we know him now (and we said that the last time!), how much he has grown and developed his special little personality. I know our time is coming... the question is when? I dread the day that I have to once again look at my baby and wonder...will I ever see him again? This is where you have to trust. Have faith. Hope. Cling to that peace that can only come from God.
They have broken hearts.
Not broken in the sense that they are sad. Nope. Quite the opposite, actually. They are two of the most spunky and happy little boys I know. They just having matching chest scars.
Logan's mommy, Stef and I have become very close friends since we met through carepages only a short two years ago. We share so many similarities with our boys, and have found we have lots in common beyond our journey as heart mommies. I knew the moment I met her, and we clicked right away, that we would be friends for life.
These two precious little boys brought us together...
I'm so glad they did.
Which is why my heart is just breaking for Stef right now. It is so hard to see one of your best friends going through such a painful time. The truth is, I know how she's feeling, because I have been there. Yet I can't imagine the emotions she is going through right now, because Logan's next surgery is right around the corner. It is this Thursday, January 14. Logan just turned 3 years old. How do you hand your three year old baby over to the surgeons? Once they've grown up and you've had the chance to just keep loving them a little more each day, for three whole years?
I don't think it is a coincidence that Logan's surgery falls on the exact same day our family heads to Iowa City for Andrew's cath. I am so grateful that Stef and I will be there together, and be able to support each other in ways that only heart mommies can understand.
This is Logan's older brother, Wyatt. And he's having a hard time with all this too. Who can blame him? He's only six. And he's got a special heart too. It might not be broken, but he is an incredible big brother. He has so much love to give. He even loves Andrew and treats him like his little brother, too!
Will you join me in praying for our dear friends, the Jacks family? They are heavy on our hearts and minds this week.
We just want our boys to be able to run and play like this again. Happy, full of life, and not a care in the world! After all, that's what little boys are supposed to do, right?
They say when it rains, it pours. There are two other heart families who we have also met on this journey who are sending their babies to surgery this month. Please also say prayers for the Carter family, and the Snyder family. Derrick's surgery is the 18th and Jordan's is this Tuesday, the 12th. Way too many families are being affected by CHD's. We must all work together to find a cure. For our kids, and the ones yet to be born. February is CHD awareness month- and us heart mommies are all working hard to fight for our kids!
We've been having all kinds of fun around here lately. Last night we went to Papa and Ga Ga's for dinner, and they surprised Andrew with this neat train that will run below the Christmas tree. It is especially fitting because it is A Christmas Story train. And if you've been following our blog for a while, you'll know that both Andrew and I are obsessed with that movie! Andrew still asks for "Ralphie" and I don't bother to tell him Christmas is over! The truth is, I sort of want to watch it too! Ha!
Andrew loved holding the remote. He thought he was making it go, but really he just pushed the button over and over again that makes the whistle blow and it was driving us all nuts! Ha!
He wouldn't take his hands off this remote!
Papa had these blocks from when his other grandkids were little. He brought them out for Andrew and he had a blast! He wanted to stack them up and then fall into them! Good thing they were soft!
After he'd knock them down he'd yell, "AGAIN?!"
He didn't want to take a break for dinner, he was having so much fun! I just love capturing these huge mouthed smiles!
Ga Ga and Andrew playing
C'mon, more fun Ga Ga!
Papa also had this saved from a while back, and Andrew loves to play with it and race the car down the ramp.
Is it sunny at Ga Ga's house, Andrew? Ha! What a cool dude.
Now I'd like to request your prayers for Andrew. As you know, his cath is scheduled for Friday, January 15. About a week ago, he developed a slight cough, but no other symptoms. We brought him to the doctor last Thursday, just to make sure everything was okay. She said everything looked good, but he had a little fluid behind one ear, so she prescribed an antibiotic, just to ward off anything and help get him healthy for his cath.
Well, I am getting nervous, because it has now been 4 days of antibiotic and his cough sounds worse to me tonight. He's also been running a temp the last 3 nights but is fine during the day. We can't quite figure out what is going on with him, but I plan to call Iowa City tomorrow and see what they want to do. I know they won't perform the cath unless he is 100%. We were just praying he'd be on the mend by now, but it seems as though he needs a few extra prayers. Please pray for guidance for us and the doctors so we make the best decision for Andrew. Thank you for all of your support!
This is one of my favorite verses, and especially during scary or hard times. I wanted to post it tonight for us, and for all the heart families going through surgery this month as a reminder that God is with us, no matter what.
Do not be afraid, for I am with you.
Do not be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you. I will help you.
I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.
Do not be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you. I will help you.
I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.
Isaiah 41:10
